Archetypes

I've done it all before. Dating someone exactly like K, but not quite.

It will not work out. Not in the end, I don't think.

Our personalities are fun together, but our values are different.

Vague statements and longing

Some days, you forget that you miss some people...

I wish I captured that moment on the dance floor when J stuck his tongue out at me because he found some girl to dance with him when I didn't want to continue being with him. It was one of those "hah, in your face" moments.

I do like his face. He is like a baby. He is baby faced and so people treat him like an infant. I do, at least.

Well I wrote down the moment. Maybe it will ingrain itself into my memory so one day when I'm old I can look back at this and remember our youth and our spunk.

Focus

Bahaha one week in, already made an enemy.

I think I read a quote somewhere that said "You've got enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something sometime in your life"

It was extremely stupid the way it happened though. It was over a PHOTO.

1. She wanted a photo of herself and the group and I said "No, let's go over, there, it will look better."

2. Then she said "But we're against the sun right now" But I knew it would be okay, so I kept going with it and everyone followed me and not her.

3. Then we took a photo and I said "wait, I don't want to be on the side because this lens makes people look fat", and she said something snotty like "so we're taking another photo because of your vanity?" Then I got a little peeved (played it off okay though).

4. Then I was bantering with one of the guys and she said "this conversation is so stupid". Of course it's supposed to be stupid. It's supposed to be stupid and fun.

Why does she even hang out in our group (with me) if all she brings is negativity!

Seriously though. I don't have time for drama. I've got a CAREER to focus on. I have a DEBT to focus on repaying. I don't want her to be on my mind and be a source of negativity.

LET'S FOCUS.

Went out and danced tonight. I used to be that shy girl who couldn't dance with boys at the school dances and now I don't want to dance with most of the men I danced with today.

I don't know why I thought I could meet someone like Adam here, in this country town.

What I really would like is to be with Mike. Or Richard. I think I am developing a crush on K, which is terrible. It's a proximity crush because the guy isn't even that cute. He is funny though. But what is this guy doing with his life!