I'm back and happier than ever

Life has it's up and downs, but I discovered something. Usually, I'm the happy bubbly one, but lately, I've been trying to change it up a bit.

I figured out this week that it's completely okay for other emotions to show too. I know this sounds really obvious, like if you're sad, don't pretend to be happy or anything. But that's exactly what I've been doing for the past month. I thought that no one would want to see me sad, so I acted like I was happy, even if I was unhappy with some situations.

I guess I didn't want to disappoint anyone, so I ended up not being true to myself.

However, if you're visably upset, people will try to make you happy again, so that you're genuinely happy instead of just pretending to yourself. So go on, don't be afraid to show that frown!

On Love

I just read a book where this psychologist can study your behaviour with your significant other for about 15 minutes and determine whether you will break up in the future with a 95% rate of accuracy.

If you knew that your relationship was going to fail before you started it, would you keep trying to learn from it, or would you pursue another relationship? And why?

And they lived happily ever after...

The boyfriend and I made up a few days ago. He feels really bad for what he did, so he asked me to slap him really hard. He came to visit me yesterday.

Scene: Mid-afternoon

Boyfriend knocks on door, excited to see me. I open it.

SLAP!!!

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Well, that was the plan. It didn't quite work out because he came by earlier than I was expecting him and I was in class when he texted me to say he was at my dorm. I told him to let himself in, and he said the door was locked.

Now, I thought he meant the main door was locked, so he was standing out in the freezing cold by himself, so I ran out of class with my keys to let him in. I ran home to see the front door wide open, so I was confused. Then I ran upstairs to my room door, where I didn't see him waiting by either. I wondered where he was, and if he decided to wait in some other building. I mumbled to myself in my confusion, and he heard me. Turns out he was hiding out in the living room. He was scared of my housemates stumbling in on him randomly hanging out by himself outside my door.

I was caught offguard, and thus I didn't get to live out my vision above.

I still slapped him afterwards though it wasn't as dramatic as the scene I had thought out.

And since he was secretly reading my blog, I didn't get to pull my prank on him either. I was really excited about it too, I had planned out where I was going to tell him, where I was going to position a secret camera to record his reaction, I had planned out the perfect story I was going to tell him. And after 30 minutes of him freaking out, I would have showed him the pregnancy results on a sheet of paper, which would actually say "You've been punked", or something along those lines. I had even planned out the name of the guy who fictionally impregnated me. His name was going to be an allusion to the fact that he was being pranked. I originally thought of the name "Ashton", for the guy (in reference to the MTV show Punk'd), but I thought that'd be too obvious. However,  Ashton's real name is Chris, so the fake guy who would be involved in my made-up pregnancy, his name would be Chris. I even got tips from a close friend who gave me the nod on the joke, and told me how to break it to him more effectively. I had this whole thing planned out!

Unfortunately, he somehow manages to ruin all my plans...

But that's okay because we're happily back together now. We went to a Butch Walker concert yesterday (who is one of my favourite artists), and the boyfriend managed to get me their set list. We are now even.

If you've been following the story of the boyfriend, that was the happy ending, the closure, tying up loose ends. Now you can rest easy... (not that going-ons of my life is so significant to you, but you know, if you were curious)

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Moving on, for those of you who have been following my blog since the first post, I'd like to thank you dearly.

However, this could very well be the last post I will be making on "ProjectHappy" for a while.

The whole reason for the name change was because I was tired of the name "Peteismyhero" because "pete" wasn't my hero anymore. I didn't do it to keep things secret from the boyfriend.

However, the meaning of the name is quite contradictory to what it was first intended. Since changing the site name, me and the boyfriend have had our first fight, and I found out later I was being lied to. All this would not have happened if I didn't change the site name.

Because of this, I'm moving on from this blog, and starting a new era in my life. This is one of the ways I'm transitioning from childhood to adult life. Of course, I'm not fully mature yet, I'm still learning in all aspects of life, but it'll be nice to start clean again, with a fresh slate.

If you'd like to continue following my rants, raves, and thoughts on life, please send me a message on this site, just write "site name" in the message, and I'll tell you the new site when I've made it.

Otherwise, thanks again for the readership, you have been essential to my life. (I never thought I'd reach over 100 subscribers!) All of your advice has helped me make decisions, and has influenced the way I've lived. Hopefully I've influenced you as well with my outlooks on life. Maybe we'll meet again in the future, for now, I'll be floating around on Xanga.

So long, and good night!
(bows)

...maybe I'll be back here someday.